07 Sunday Jun 2015
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I’ve been gone for so long, I feel bad. Ive surely lost all my readers. life is so damn turbulent. I’m on a plane with a defective navigation system. I’m screwing everything up and all I think I need is a vacation. Maybe go off somewhere alone until I figure this out? Just if something or someone can rid me of my sorrow, I am willing to sell my soul.
I promise myself I will write regularly now.
05 Monday Jan 2015
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05 Monday Jan 2015
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Lying motionless.
Lying to myself.
Yellow, I say, the sun is bright and yellow.
I wonder, why it looks so dull and blue?
Fires within, reduce me to ash.
Abandoned wreck, broken dreams and senseless cash.
Beneath the ocean the weather hangs cool.
Six feet under, the soil, also cool.
Lying I say, its not a sign.
But I won’t lie to myself.
No, not this time.
Inside I was sure.
The invitation was mine.
31 Wednesday Dec 2014
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Watch this life unfold
In hues of greys and golds
Mercilessly slewed
Beneath oceans of blues.
Oh dark cloud
What rusted your silver lining?
Falling crumbled, with the raindrops,
Shining.
28 Thursday Aug 2014
The souls visit often
They show few of us
To our graves
For the ones they cull,
Its an unspoken honor
For us an unspoken sorrow
Powerless, sad and miserable
Taken from this unjust life
Unable to struggle
Within the grasp of these superior beings.
The looming sky is gray with stardust
Sadness and pain merge as they lift her,
Her blood contaminates flowing waters.
Her release from the chains,
The theft of our love,
Breaking of innocent hearts
Making lives
…. Complete
Our helpless hearts beg, plead and bleed.
The souls silently slide away with her in their arms.
Like a mother clutching her newborn
They eerily fit within each other
… … . .. …. .. .. ..
Finished business or left undone
They will come for you too
Your mind will crack and bleed and tear
The fear will lead you down the path of your own destruction
When the sorrow slowly descends
The sun fades into nothing
Frost crawls forward in spiderwebs.
The pain falls upon your head.
As you accept your defeat
Fallen and shamed
You will fade
Your essence begins to lift
Embraced now, in your newfound joy.
Steadily your grave will appear.
Angels will arise and new wings shall sprout
Free and away from the world
Into oblivion and eternity
Every slow step together with blank blackness forever.
Into the infinite blackness, forever.
For forever.
PS. I don’t know where that came from.
MV
26 Tuesday Aug 2014
Posted in creative writing, death, depression, life, love, meaning, sadness, suicide, verse
I’m sitting in darkness
The lights, they burn my eyes
I’m sick of waking up again
I wish I that I could die
My sun is trapped
In its own perfect eclipse
I’m drowning again
In this sandstorm of pain.
My heart is shattered
Bleeding the bits of love I had
My mind, it’s gone blind
I can only see the darker shades of life.
You tell me its gonna be alright
But dear, I only agree
Because I know one day I’m gonna die.
That’s when everything’ll be fine
Glad to know you love me, honey
Please help me out then?
I’m trapped in this cacophony
Of my fall from darling grace
Angels, Gods, Demons, whatever
Just someone, rid me of my fever
I’m getting Sicker every minute
This sadness is unbearable
And time infinite
Maybe Ill just learn to love
These dying roses, crippled lilies
These cold, deep oceans and sad silent screams
And falling skies, these dark sorrows
Dark sorrow, oh dark sorrow.
I love you dearest Darkness…
MV
25 Monday Aug 2014
I love all your dark talk
And how you crave to die
But lady you know you’re not right
I’ll never let you say goodbye
I want to be like you
Because your world
Is a perpetual melancholy tale
And how, I’m always by your side
To hold you when you fail
You love how I rush to you
Every time I hear you cry
You know how I love you,
Even more than my own life
We’ll be fine together,
We’ll be fine again,
Please write me your love letters
So I can bear my pain
You know how I see only a sad world
Broken and scared by all my fears
Were so alike, like two pillars holding up a shrine
Save me angel, I’m missin’ you today
If I told you how I’m shattered
And why I hate myself
Would you walk away?
But no matter what happens
I will always follow you
Until its my last day.
I remember the shaded reveries of light
That shone into our dreams
The delicate flowers that ran in circles
Around the fine marble
And how the world slows down
When you’re holding my hands, with your love.
The feel of lush grass under my skin
And the enchanting smell of your hair
They are all killing me for good
Your love is dangerous as hell
I wish I could dream forever
So I never wake up to find
That one day you’ll be gone.
PS. Well, it was tough to start writing again after this long gap and I don’t even know If this piece is as good as the others, but yeah life I hard and I’ve found a friend, we tell Each other everything and it feels like my dreams are coming true. Cheers to all of you, the ones who are sad, the ones who Are happy and the ones who are feeling lost.
MV
12 Tuesday Aug 2014
Moist ground. Fragrant flowers.
Broken dreams. Withered lovers.
Shades of grey blend to make the world
Shades of pain blend to make a pearl.
Falling to six feet under.
Sick of life, craving surrender.
Crimson ribbons.
Scarlet sunset.
Embraced by eternal sorrow
Happiness? Maybe tomorrow.
Maybe not.
The cold rain stings my skin
Clouds dance with lightning
The werewolf winds howl at the moon
My end will be here soon.
The world is in a silver glow
Cast by the lit-up moon.
Silhouettes of angel wings descending.
They’re here to take me home.
Silent grace. Happiness is mine.
The angels are here. Now its time.
Lift me up into the sky.
Show me what its like to fly.
MV
09 Saturday Aug 2014
Golden leaves are falling on silver windows
The majestic sky is coming blue
Look baby boy the birds are hopping
Don’t cry any more
The ground is brown
Like the massive tree trunks
But baby boy it’s still not as deep as your brown eyes
Rivers are clear
The fishes twirl along with the flow
Waves meet the massive ocean
But baby boy, your heart is larger the ocean.
Stars are shining
The wind plays its music on the trees
The moon is made up of sugar
But its not as sweet as you baby boy.
Here’s some candy baby boy
And hugs and kisses
And grandmother’s stories
The world is ringing baby boy
Look the world is alive
Don’t cry anymore
MV
06 Wednesday Aug 2014
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Its cold, the world has started to rust
Sunshine gone, my dreams have turned to dust
I always thought I’d have a perfect life
But now I see, I think I need a rife-
Trapped and caged in others’ minds
I’m sacred if I break out, I’ll start snorting lines
The wind never laughed so hard
I’m being pricked by infected shards
I was hoping I could find you here
Oh I’m locked up with all my fears
Come and get me dear friend
I hope you can bear my bleeding hands.
The sky never looked so dull
My face is turning into a skull
Can an angel pull me out?
Oh no God hasn’t been entertained yet
All alone and misunderstood I cry
Figuring out my life is like decoding a lie
I’m sorry elders you’re stupid to me
I always believed life was more than securing a monthly fee
I wish I could break myself free
But I’m scared you’ll die of pain disease
Can’t see myself in the mirror
Guess the silver has worn off
Just like my liver
Oh pills take my pain from me
Then At least I can rest in peace
The world is forced in the wrong directions
Did you notice the star you worship is actually burning?
Where’s your talk of bad omen?
No matter where you go, you’re still spinning the same…
Same as me
You’re just the same
A loser in a losing game
We’ll come down together
And we’ll see who failed better…
MV
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